Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in Silverage's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, April 16th, 2002
3:08 pm	Guiding stars Just imagine! You are working hardly on some project. You forget yourself doing your best to achieve the goal. The outcome should be so great you are ready to sacrifice 20 hours a day seven days a week. You are going closer and closer to your obsession. Finally the day has come. You got it. You are winner. You are celebrating victory with your friends. Being happy for a day or two you set another goal even more brilliant and ambitious. And that happens again... and again... and again... Many years later you suddenly discover that life has passed but you was happy only few dozens of times. All the rest time you were working to become happy when your work is done. But when one work has been done you succeeded in finding new work and so on. The only exit I have found from that never ending labyrinth is to realize that the Life is not a result. It's a process! We can have goals but we should live not only after our dreams are realized but also on our way to them. The goals are just our guiding stars. (Comment on this)
Friday, January 18th, 2002
2:00 am	Help other people if they need it and you can do it. The World will help if you really need it. And that's great. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 13th, 2001
11:12 pm	Difficulty and easiness, saturation and emptiness, happiness and misfortune. We need all of that to feel the difference. Potential difference induces the current. The current is the Life. Immobility is the Death. The motion gives the possibility for changes and transformation. So why should we complain of fortune? Current Mood: optimistic (5 Comments |Comment on this)
11:11 pm	How the Life was happen? - It was a happy chance! Everyone who achieved true understanding what is going on in this world had managed to find the light in the darkness of his own experience, his own life. No one could find genuine knowledge in the books. So we should not wish the life different from that one we do have. We should just be more consciousness. We should use every thing and every moment to get stronger, to rise our spirituality and to improve our own lives and the LIFE. Everything we do need to be happy is already around us and within us! Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
11:05 pm	I was so unsatisfied and unhappy the whole day finding documentation on Windows CE programming. It's so boring waiting many web pages to load. I was not sure I would fully utilize found info. So my efforts are possibly useless. And I was tired. I was going to attend AIKIDO training later tonight. But I did not want to. Anyway I left our office and went to the sporting hall. When I arrived I had suddenly realized that I could not stay there and I left immediately. Going home in subway I was reading a great book by Den Millman. Suddenly I experienced a kind of enlightenment. In hurry I found a piece of paper and a pen and began writing my thoughts. When I arrived at home Mom said that she had cooked delicious baked potato with mushrooms and that's great I am back. Now my mind is calm and clear and I am almost happy. Current Mood: calm (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 12th, 2001
4:23 pm	Every second without joy is wasted Watching Mylene Farmer music videos and getting higher and higher. She lives by her songs and videos. She shines brighter than star. Everybody should be alive every single moment of his life. We should not divide our lives to life itself and work. We should do only that things we do like. Otherwise we will waste our lives. Every second without joy is wasted. We live not to work and work not to live. God does not need people to work. He wants we do live great lives and love every part and every second of it. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Mylene Farmer (Comment on this)
2:15 pm	I am totally exhausted now after terrible submitting process of HandyHTML to various software archives. It's so boring and there is so little outcome from that activity. Thank you guys who enables PAD submissions at their sites. The PADs can save a lot of time. And the Time is our true treasure. Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Monday, December 10th, 2001
3:01 pm	The right place under the Sun I'm editing my pages in HandyHTML now. Indeed nice editor. One of the best. Slavik is a genius developer. But there are so few registrations. Why?.. Competitors! A lot of other great editors like HomeSite, Dreamweaver, 1st page don't let HandyHTML to generate enough sales for a living. If Slavik could develop completely unique software we would possibly be a rich. Just a dreams... How can we find the right place under the Sun? We should become unique and essential in this world. We should make something that somebody really needs. We should not waste the time of anybody by unnecessary actions. That's right. If you are necessary you are indestructible. If your will is in resonance with God's providence your life will be full and happy. (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 8th, 2001
5:07 pm	So many computer viruses are cruising here and there. I was shocked having one of the best antivirus system installed at my PC to discover near ten of them sleeping in my old mail archive and two reproducing and sending their copys to all my contacts. It's terrible! To destroy all of them I have two option - to kill the whole archive with thousands of emails for the last few years or to spent next few years dividing grain from weed. The only choice is to keep them sleeping like multitude of biological viruses are sleeping in our bodys. Very strange thing that we are still alive... :) Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Tatu (Comment on this)
4:50 pm	Writing also helps to be aware of living, feeling, thinking. You become more consciousness every minute. Being a sleeping robot who don't remember oneself is not so fun. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Tatu (Comment on this)
4:10 pm	Tryed to focus my attention on writing. Sure! Somebody around wants to include you in their own game, want you to make something that you don't. It's dishonest. But the major social system all of us are part of is organized such way. But there are some oases in the desert. Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
3:40 pm	I'm typing in my Cassiopeia this first note for Live Journal. The time has come to start making my everyday life more interesting and joyful. I beleive writing could enrich my life. The understanding of anything should be transformed into real activity otherwise it remains completely useless. Very strange thing - I chose english for my records but it's a bit difficult for me. Life is a strange thing but it's very cool anyway. The writing anything helps me feel myself more alive. It also gives the possibility to find the sense even where there is almost nothing to find. It resembles finding a black cat in a dark room when there is no cat at all. But that's cool. If you'll find something finally you can feel happy... for a moment or two. Current Mood: creative Current Music: Tatu (Comment on this)